you're like the wound that never recover..

though i know you're no good for me.

but still
i miss you. yes YOU. and i hate that i miss you. teddy. toot.
but no, i dont feel the same toward you anymore.
i want an explanation.

things you'll probably never know.

i've moveddd.. to crashingfun.tumblr.com
see you there (:

still doing some changes and setting,i will update you guys again......maybe.

the nice weather is seeminly to awesome and i just laid on bed and enjoy (:
relaxaion is goood for the body too! :D

just chill and relax (:

i want

1. suki sushi ( SALMON!)
2. go chomp chomp  ( never go there before =x VERY KUKU)
3. go geylang for my frog leg porridge + durians + stringray!
4. daily scooop ice cream / island creamy! ( but i miss daily scoop ice cream more!)
5. buy new sunglasses
6. get cs5 ^^
7. play l4d2
8. dip and play in the sea ! *loves*
9. night cyclinggg <3 <3
10. someone give me a ride on their bicycle! :DD
11. Lose weight
12. photo shoooot uh!
13. heart to heart talk ( much love!)
14. movie marathlon!


okay i have no idea why i post this here too just being random. (:
and the list goes on and on.
IM on having HOLIDAYYYYY NOWWW! =D
shall enjoy the most of it. *YAY!

hehehe and i woke up forgetting all the worries that i had in my back of my mind *puffff* everything goneee! but as i looked through the pictures on fb, a thought came to my mind. okay or rather a reminder.

i remember what pf said a best way to break a friendship is to go holiday tgt. yes its so true =x ( kinda sad though) yet im kinda worried what this weekend wil like? okay CHOI, maybe its only applys to... friends that are not so close? but going with awesome FRIEND, is gonna be GOOOOD right, its gonna be nothing of what my worries are. heh.

its my second time going on holidys with friends, and still im kinda scared, guessed im too rely on my parents for safety and comforrt, wheres the independent shengjiaaa :D just want my stupidity to be gone!

okay 1, 2 ,5,
everything is still in process, the best is yet to come.
sometime we have to fail to learn it,=> my stupidity.. thanks for the reminder.

got to head out now... though its feel like im struck on my chair!

scolding is another act of showing love.bcos when someone stop caring, all the scolding stop.
okay im not mentioning stranger and those mad dogs, you should know who im refering to, be it parents, relatives,friends, but they scold u cos they cared.they wished you will change for the better,yet if one choose to ignore the advices given,its at one loss.

remember the pain u felt when your love ones is angry and ignore you and how u wished they would scold you? (:

bahhh! im currently struck at home to study. I.M piggging at home now if not i confrim "her" study with me! it simply too much to study and absorb within sucha short time. i only got 3.5 days to study from SCRATCH ,and she makes me so pressurizeddcos im reading and sudying like a tortoise. ); make me so stressss only! ROAR :p  whats more 3.5 days is not enough and if only i have 3.5days all for myself. okay but im telling myself,the fruit of the labour that i will get :D its gonna be soo soo gooood.  cousin engagement dinner later + daddy celebration tmr! BAHH!

i so want to stone at home, okay im sucha bad girl. getting pretty lazy/tired to go out. i guessed its the 2 weeks holidays that changes everything.im doing everything opposite of what i have been doing. everything/everywhere feels werid yet going from places to places in sg theres a sense of familiarity yet distance and weird. okay i dontknow how to explain myself.

i guessed its just me. but its just 2 weeks? not 2 months or 2 years.
maybe i just need some time alone. away from the crowds and at the comfort of my home. (:

they say, there's no such thing as a boring topic , only a boring person.
yet everything seem boring to me.
maybe i've just turned to a boring person.
i need to find the spark!
maybe i can find it back from my nephewsss, its amazing how kids can play with everything and anything. it is no wonder kids are sucha happy people.
we dont grow old to get bored of the same old things, but we grow up to discover more and more interesting things. gonnna discover BRAND NEW and EXCIting THINGS NEXT WEEEKEND! :D  im excited, how about you ,MAAAA? :D

and im just reminded that tingting is so funny.

tingting: OMG you are going ______?
me: yess! you want to come along too?
tingting: but i dontknow how to________. =.=

tingting ahhh! i want to smack your ass ! ;p

okay i think only tingting know and probably a few smart ones would know what im talking about. :p nothing much though :D

im in NEED OF QUALITY SLEEP.
haven been sleeping well for the past one month.
exam + holiday( taiwan) been causing this. okay i think its longer than one month but im not sure how long.
when im in taiwan i wake up like a walking zombie, i even got so blur i forgot i was in taiwan and when mum told me a clock timing and itwhen i looked at my hp and it didnt matches, i even thought my phone was spoiled and quickly wake up, only to realise she told me the wrong time. and i woke up to went to brush teeth only to NEARLY lost my balance and fell backward and nearly end myself in the bath tub.

see thats how a walking zombie behaves! i was even laughing stupidly at myself.
and now that im back home i woke up lacking the energy to even to get out of the bed.
im so tired i have no strength to move but yet i just dragged myself to wash up and lie back into the bed. like now. im using computer.HEHEHEH. :D

went for night run the otherday and the funny thing, my thigns only started to ache today.so weird. shouldnt it start to ache ytd. bahhh, shengja seee lah, this is the result of not exercising! oh ya, i've still to do my up to do list. pooor quality sleep is stopping me. okay excusessss!

next weekend is gonna be exciting!! i SO CANT WAIT. yet at thesame time i feel so guilty, like so bai jia zi. keep spending daddy money. sigh, i so feel like paying it on my own.

its been long since i have a long chat wif u, and thanks for sharing and listening to me,  i hope u will recover from " it" sooon. (: somehow i got this feeling my phone beep because u just seeing if im okay.i guessed my previous post was too emo? hahha? but still thankyouuU! you know who you are" J" :D 


whats the point of sleeeping, when you sleep tired and wake up onlyto find yourself MORE Tired? *confused*